Well this is the last weekend of 2012, are you excited or are you sad to see it go?
Personally I am glad that 2012 is over and I am looking forward to what 2013 has to bring but I am reluctant to let it go.
I am that person that holds on to things for dear life, even if they are dead and gone I am still holding on with everything I have! I take comfort in what is familiar even if it isn't good for me. 2012 was full of ups and downs, some might say more downs than ups but I think it was even on both counts.
At the beginning of 2012 my hair was coming in, I now have enough to make an ever so tiny ponytail! HUGE accomplishment! In 2013 I will need to plan my first cut since 2011, my hair is just to the top of my shoulders and is getting to the point of me not knowing what to do with it!
I was also dealing with the thought that I was going to become a Nana, though I was excited I was not excited about the circumstances and drama that came with it during those nine months. Since the birth of my grandson things have settled down but I feel that something my be looming over the horizon in 2013.
I started my blog this year which was very exciting and still is! I am trying to find a happy balance on what I want the blog to be and how it will fit into my life.
This past year as also been an interesting time for me in finding out who I am. Granted at being fifty years old (almost 51) I should have this figured out by now but I have never taken the time to sift through the ordinary details of life and determine what it is that is and isn't important to me. On one hand, it is exciting and fun but on the other it can be rather frustrating, I feel like I don't have much time left. I don't want to be sifting through the incidental things for too long. I need to kick it in the ass and get moving, TICK TOCK TICK TOCK is all I hear some days! I understand though that because it has taken me so long to reach this point that I need to be patient and not be in such a rush, if God has this stupendously great plan for me I need to take the necessary steps before I get there, you know, learn how to walk before you run, right?
Time is an unusual thing, some watch and measure it carefully others waste it or take it for granted. It is not something you can touch or taste but is so valuable. There are those people that are in hospitals or hospice homes that are looking forward to the next day, they would love to be able to 'purchase' another minute, hour or day. On the other hand how many times have you heard a friend or a co-worker (or yourself) utter "I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS DAY TO BE OVER!" Many is the time that we think it is a given that tomorrow will come and with it comes the promise of a better day but for many people they don't get that day, for many today is their last day, some know it others, it comes as a complete surprise. I'm not saying this to be a downer but to realize that every day, good or bad is a gift. I'm not perfect, I just as guilty for wishing time away, it will be great when I can finally drive, it will be great when I can go into a bar, it will be great when I walk down the aisle, it will be great when I get a great job, it will be great when I have a baby, it will be great...... The whole time not realizing how great every moment of my life up until that point has been.
I can't remember how the old saying goes something like youth is wasted on the young, which to me means if we could take what we know now and go back and be younger things would turn out differently. Unfortunately we don't get that chance, we get older and along with it if we are really lucky we get wiser. We can try to pass along what we learn to those that are younger but I fear that doesn't always work, I think all they hear is the ramblings of a older adult but it won't stop me from trying.
I hope that this weekend you are able to sit and reflect over the past year, thank God for the many blessings and trials that He has lead you through and pray that the coming year will be better. Reach out to those you haven't had much interaction with over the year, your call, text or email may be just what they need. We are not here for ourselves but we are here for each other.
Love who you are, where you are, who is around you, what you are going through, LOVE, LOVE LOVE!
Thus endeth the sermon.
Keep smiling and know that God loves you and so do I.
L
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