HELLO and Welcome!

I am VERY new to this blogging thing so forgive me, I may over share occasionally!

A quick outline of who I am:

Born & raised in MN.

Youngest of 3 girls.

German/Lutheran up bringing, can we say supressed emotions and thoughts?

Parents - Dad, hardworker and funny.  He thought we knew we were loved because of how much he worked.

               Mom, loved the idea of kids but didn't really understand them at all.  She died when was 13 yrs old.

Moved to St Paul, MN when my Dad remarried, I was about 15 yrs old.

Married my first long term boyfriend when I was 24 & had my beautiful Sara when I was 27.

Divorced when I was 46.

Began my fight with Breast Cancer when I was 49.  By October of 2011 I was and am currently cancer free!

I love to bake and cook for others.  I dream of having a cafe that is comfy/cozy.  The food would be made from scratch & with lots of love.

I am a Christian and believe that the Lord has been with me my whole life, it just took me until I was in my forties to figure that out!  Well, better late than never right?

I love to write a fact that I forgot about until I started to kick around the idea of blogging.  I started jotting down my thoughts and I can't seem to stop!

My beautiful daughter Sara just had a beautiful baby boy Aiden, he is so handsome!  Sara has been my best friend from the moment she entered this world.  Currently she is living out of state and we don't talk nearly as much as we used to which has caused me to realize I need to start living.  I tend to live my life through others and never for myself.  

Thinking about living my own terrifies me.  I don't want to mess it up!  Crazy right?  Being a Christian I should be trusting the God will lead me but I am afraid of letting Him down.  If you haven't guess I am a control freak.  I have a strong desire to be right and to do things right.  I hate the feeling that I could disappoint my Heavenly Father so I tend to not act when I should.  

I've been sitting on the sidelines of life waiting to be put in the game instead of jumping in.  I have a nice collection of slivers in my bum from sliding along the bench!  Now the Coach is tossing me into the game but he hasn't old me which end zone is mine or even what the play is!

DISCLAIMER:  If you are worried that my blog will be heavy with football references no need to worry, I have used all the terms that I know!

I hope I have made you curious and that you will check back tomorrow.

Keep smiling, God loves you and so do I!

L