Last year at this time I was just getting my hair back. I thought it would be a great Christmas to celebfrate my victory but it didn't necessarily turn out the way I planned.
This Christmas, I have a full head of hair! I thought this year would be a great one being a new Nana but unfortunately that is not going to going turn out the way I want but there will be lots of future Christmas's that we can spend together.
I am so thankful that I have this time, that I am able to celebrate the season cancer free. I know that I am so blessed but I can't help but think about what I don't have and feel like "If only... would make me feel better.
I consider myself a good person, one who doesn't ask for a lot in life so when the few things I want don't go as planned I feel very let down. I know for a fact from March through October the Lord was with me every step of the way but lately I feel slightly deserted. I know that He is still there and just because things are not going to "my plan" that it's just not the right time yet. Have I told you yet that I am not a very patient person?
Well I hope that all of you are able to enjoy the season.
Keep smiling and know that God loves you are so do I.
L
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