Reward or Punishment?

I had an interesting epiphany last week, it occurred to me that in all the years I have been 'rewarding' myself  with desserts and take out food in reality I have been punishing myself.

I have 'rewarded' myself into being over 200 lbs!  God continues to bless me so much so that I don't  need to eat out as much as I do.  For those of you that are not overly religious I know this may seem like n odd thing to say but the Lord is enough for me.  I have been trying to fill myself up with food of all kinds but in reality I really want is love and acceptance, two things that God gives me every moment of every day.  I just didn't realize it until now.

Don't get me wrong there are and will continue to be those days where I feel I REALLY NEED a muffin, a Whopper or a Pepsi and I will relent but I am hopeful that those days will come less and less often.

This journey I am on is very interesting, I learning so much.  Some things are interesting, some embarrassing and all are enlightening.  It's not that I think there is a lot wrong with myself but it's my opinion a person should always be striving to be better.  Life is so short and I want to be able to look back and say I tried.  I tried to help others, I tried to be a better mother, wife, friend, worker, Christian, neighbor, citizen.  I hope that it doesn't sound arrogant because I genuinely don't feel that way, I just want to be the best person I can be. 

Life to me is so exciting, there are so many people out there, so many opportunities to impact someone.  It could be in big way or at times a small way.  If you think about what would make you smile it probably would do the same for someone else.  After all, all any of us want is to be noticed, acknowledged and that can be accomplished so easily.  Sometimes we seem to forget that though we may feel alone at times we are so far from being alone.  There are billions of others who feel the same way you do.

Take care to notice those around you and let them know how important they are  to you and to others.

Keep smiling and know that God loves you and so do I.

L